Wow.. I am amazed!

I just have to say I woke up today with the Holy Spirit so heavy on me that I've barely been able to breathe all day. I want to tell you guys that theres a VERY HAPPY GOD UP THERE WATCHING EVERYTHING thats going on. To all of you feeling like he isn't noticing, HE SO IS! Push through this like you have never pushed before unselfishly and for the will of God and HONESTLY drop your will for his and then every unanswered prayer will begin to make more sence to you. Find yourself wrapped up in him so that he can whisper peace in your ear and make you forget what your will started praying for to begin with. In the end your very hearts desire will be fulfilled in every way regardless of whether or not your prayers were answered in the way you wanted them to be. Sometimes the hardest thing for us to understand is that GOD actually made each and every individual, from the hair on your head to the toenails on your toes and if anyone knows better what makes you tick, it is him!

So can you imagine making something out of clay and then planning its whole little existance out and then as its living out its little existance so perfectly, it tries to change things up because it thinks it knows more about itself than you do, it's maker??? AHAHA it doesn't even have a brain compared to you much less does it know how to take care of itself or what it needs to pray for. Can you imagine how foolish the prayers would sound coming from a lump of clay who knows nothing about itself other than what you have created around it?? I can hear it now, " Dear GOD Shawna, please give me lots of little green play dough money so that I can buy my red brick playdough house sooner than later." HAHA... can you imagine? When the whole time, on the other side of the table, I would already have it a BARBIE dream house waiting for it, if it would just follow my direction to the other side of the table! what a ding dong lump of clay I have made lol....WOW,,, How do we even have the nerve to ask of God for anything but his will?? What we need to be praying for is the decernment and softened heart to accept his will over our own. It is no longer OUR life when we have given it to him! Pray that he helps you to accept the things in life that give you a shortcut to the fulfillment of his will for your life. OHH WOW, WHOEVER is praying for me today THANK YOU, THANK YOU for being obedient. I have been asking God to sensitize me to him again since my husbands sentencing. Boy have I got a testimony for everyone! Thanks again my great big sweet FAMILY! I love you all!